"There are no coincidences, only God." As I make my way through life, I become more comfortable accepting this idea. There are no coincidences. Timing is everything. Being a second too early or a second too late can alter the cause and effect continuum that holds the world together. Yet, regardless of how things happen, I’ve begun to question why they happen the way they happen. Lately, I feel as though my subconscious is trying to tell me something. I know this sounds crazy, but it’s true.
These past few months I’ve simply been existing; stuck in the same routine and too tired to switch things up. I know there is something missing. There are things I long for in the quiet of night and think of while the morning sun skates its way up the sky. Someone somewhere once said “If you want to know where your heart lies, look at where your mind goes when it wonders.” My mind goes to you. Well, my mind goes to them. Or should I say us? Well what we were. My mind becomes suffocated by the past. My heart begins to race as anxiety makes its way to the pit of my stomach and just sits there until I shake the thought process.
So, when your daydreams crash into your reality and you only have a split second to react, what do you do? Do you run the other way? Stand, frozen, in place? Or, do you simply smile, make 30 seconds of small talk and then say “see you later” because you know that certain doors aren’t meant to be reopened. Yet, temptation is invigorating.
This sounds rather melodramatic. Let’s rephrase this.
Where does my mind go when it wonders? My mind goes, not to you, but, to the idea of you. Of them. Of us.
Timing is everything.
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